I hope everyone has been having a fab day so far. It has been a minute since I’ve done a post where I just ramble and these posts are one of my favourite posts to read so I thought it was the right time to write one for you all.
First of all, how are you guys?? I love interacting with you all so tell me one thing you’re grateful for in the comments and let’s start a conversation! I’m currently listening to Jack and Jacks new album, A Good Friend Is Nice, and I completely forgot how much I love their music. I’m so glad I re-discovered them because they’re really underrated. My favourites from the album have to be: April gloom, Promise me and Lotta love.
I wanted to start this post by talking about self-care. If you guys read my 2018 in review post, you’d know that 2018 wasn’t the best year for me. I’ve accumulated a few ways to change that. One major problem was that I either overslept or didn’t sleep enough which really affected my productivity. I’m working on sleeping for 8-9 hours every day and not have naps. That only happened because I was overworking myself mentally that I didn’t even realise until I started to get stress dreams. Hopefully, with all that extra time, I will have time to read the books that I’ve been looking forward to reading and do something I enjoy e.g blogging and being active.
That is also something I want to work on, being active again. I miss feeling energetic and being healthy in general and I actually enjoy exercising. Sadly, I haven’t been taking care of my health because I’ve been eating lots and I’m not sure why. I’ve just been extremely tired and I can’t find the exact reason why. One thing I’ve definitely been worrying about is what I’m going to be doing after A-levels. I want to do accounting or, anything to do with working in a bank but, I’m not sure what Uni’s to look for or if I want to go Uni at all. I looked at higher apprenticeships but due to where I live, there’s not much. Anything good is in London so I don’t really know.
Does anyone else stress about the perfect career?? Growing up, my mind would constantly change on what I’d want to be because the things I like were forever changing. At one point I wanted to be an artist, then a presenter, then a teacher or a graphic designer and when I started becoming older, I became totally clueless. One thing that just doesn’t help is that school wants you to get good grades across all subjects and this wasn’t helpful for me because I don’t have an obvious strength. If you guy’s read my post, What I got for my GCSE’s, you’d know I got alright grades across everything. But, I chose to pursue a career as an Accountant because I don’t mind working at an office and late become self-employed and I didn’t mind Maths at school too.
Anyway, who else has been loving James Charles at the moment??? I’m definitely a big fan of the sister squad, haha. I love it when he does collaborations with other YouTubers, especially Jeffree Star. I’m not gonna lie though, I don’t watch much youtube and only watch very selective people because I’m not a fan of all the social climbers and all the crazy scandals that have happened. I just love being part of that awkward generation where we don’t get the 90’s kids but don’t understand the Logan Paul generation. There should be a specific word for us. When I’m talking to my friends, we use to talk about how we were the most screwed over generation with GCSE’s, the BREXIT aftermath and everything else.
Can we just talk about that I’m gonna be 17 on March! I don’t think I can get my head around it. I remember that I couldn’t wait to be 16-17 because I’d have my whole life together but, I’m a mess, haha. No one has ever told me about the stress, people and the things life throw at you because it’s very obvious that I’m exhausted from it all. It’s all due to the expectations we create. That is one thing I want to work on is to not expect so much from myself. One very recent example was me deleting some pre-written posts which were going to be posted throughout of January, but ended up deleting cause I didn’t like them. This isn’t the first time that has happened. So, I am definitely going to grow from this and focus on the present and just enjoy myself. I plan on going for walks and riding my bike more so then I’m active and have more fresh air. So much is yet to come because at 17 I can learn to drive which I’m so excited about! One thing I’ve been struggling with is getting a job because it doesn’t work around my 6th form timetable. That is one of my focuses this year too so then I can fund my driving lessons and go out in general.
So I hope you all enjoyed this post! It has been so long since I just wrote for no apparent reason and I always say that I need to do it more often and end up not doing it, haha. Have a great day everyone x