You're not lonely when You're lonely | Reticent Heart blog
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Today, I just want to share with you all a recent event that happened to me that changed my life for the better. I learned something about myself and I learned something about how the world operates.
I’m an introvert.
There is no other way to say it. I prefer to sit in the back of the classroom and never say a word. I prefer to email my teachers about questions that I need answers to instead of just raising my hand in class. I prefer to hang out with one friend at a time, two at most. And I’d rather skip that party to stay home and blog or relax on my couch reading a book.
I’m an introvert and I have come to terms with it. Being introverted isn’t necessarily a bad thing unless being that way begins to affect your social life completely.
That’s exactly what has happened to me.
As I was viewing everyone Snapchat stories, I couldn’t help but feel empty inside as I watched two of my friends “hanging out” while I was home. I couldn’t help by feel ugly as I watched a friend of mine take 30 bathroom selfies with her nice up-do and freshly beat face. I couldn’t help but feel lonely as I watched some of my friends sit around the dinner table at our favorite restaurant while I was still at home waiting for the invite.
I felt lonely and really like any teenage girl, I just wanted to disappear.
What’s wrong with me? Why aren’t I the same happy, full of life person I was a few weeks ago? Why did I feel ugly? Why did I feel so alone?
Whenever I start to feel out of myself I take a few deep breaths and drink some water to relax. I curl up on the couch and nap. This time, I didn’t. Sometime just told me not to.
I kept reminding myself all day that I needed to buy a former teacher of mines eBook that went on sale a couple weeks ago. Manda Carpenter, one of my favorite teachers and bloggers has been someone I looked up for a while now. Her style of writing, fashion and her relationship with the God have inspired me to be real and true to myself no matter what.
I purchased her eBook, Letters of Encouragement. The first topic was a letter written to me and you and everyone else about loneliness.
It started with this quote: “We sometimes think we want to disappear, but all we really want is to be found.”
That really did it for me.
One quote described exactly how I was feeling and this got me to think about a lot of different things. Feeling the way I have been feeling is normal. I’m normal. I have feelings and one thing I know for sure is that writing helps me get those feelings out.
It’s okay to not feel at my best and it’s okay to want the attention of other people. After reading the letter, I learned that if I ever need a friend, God will always be there for me even when I don’t feel like it.
You see… Sometimes we don’t want to let other people in and sometimes we don’t want others to know about our problems but maybe sometimes other people are who need in order to figure life out. Besides, even the best of us can’t do it alone.
Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my post today! Thank you Najida for responding as quickly as you did and allowing me the opportunity to write to your followers!
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Thank you Keiana for writing such a lovely post which i certainly can relate to. Make sure to follow Keiana as she is a fabulous blogger and deserves way more followers. Have a lovely day everyone.
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